Alright, let’s talk about getting back on solid ground. For a while there, things felt… wobbly. Yeah, wobbly is the word. It wasn’t one big thing, more like a pile of small stuff chipping away, you know? Felt like I was just drifting, trying to keep my head above water.
I remember spending weeks just going through the motions. Wake up, work (or try to), eat, sleep. Repeat. No real spark. It’s like the color drained out of everything. My old hobbies? Didn’t touch ’em. Friends calling? Made excuses. Just felt heavy, like carrying a backpack full of stones I didn’t know how to put down.
Finding the Bottom
It got to a point where I knew something had to give. You can’t just float forever, right? Eventually, you either sink or find something to grab onto. I guess I hit my personal bottom. Wasn’t dramatic, just this quiet realization one morning that I didn’t want to feel like this anymore. Enough was enough.
So, I started small. Really small.
- First, I cleaned my workspace. Sounds dumb, but it felt like taking back control of at least one tiny corner of my life.
- Then, I forced myself to go for a walk. Just around the block. The next day, a bit further.
- Started cooking proper meals again, not just grabbing whatever was easiest.
The Slow Climb Back
It wasn’t overnight. Far from it. Some days were still rough. Some days I barely did anything. But I kept trying to do something, even if it was just making my bed. I started digging out some old projects I’d abandoned. Tinkering, mostly. Not aiming for perfection, just… doing.
Slowly, very slowly, I started feeling… well, less wobbly. Like my feet were finding firmer ground. The heavy feeling started to lift, bit by bit. I wasn’t exactly sprinting, but I was walking again. Putting one foot in front of the other.
And that’s kind of how it happened. No magic wand, no sudden fix. Just a lot of small steps, a lot of just showing up for myself day after day. Now? Things feel solid again. Stable. Like the rock is back where it should be. It’s good. It’s really good to feel grounded again.